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This quote from this article comes damn close to summing up how I feel about heavy SM:

"I have to go to the places that I hate," says Femcar. "Sometimes, I can see all the horrors in the universe and I try to take them all on. I am trying to see it, I am trying to sit with it, I am wallowing in it, I am screaming in it. When I open my arms to the worst that we can be, I have this tremendous, horrible experience. Something inside me says, 'Because you are seeing it and you are owning it as you, it's OK.' Every cell in my being sees past the moment and into every other person and every other energy in the universe and it's all absolutely beautiful and peaceful. And it's not because I looked away from the horror. It's because I looked at it."
She's a bottom and I'm a top, but that bolded bit is exactly why I need SM. I judge myself most of the time. When I can accept my own cruel side and realize and know that it doesn't actually make me evil, that even when I DO let go I can and do still keep everyone safe, then I can love myself absolutely -- and in the moments when I can do that I can overflow with love for everyone else (and do.)

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st_andrews_girl
Apr. 30th, 2007 12:41 pm (UTC)
Sorry, I have trouble taking anything she says seriously since the time I heard her talking about about, "talking with her vagina" (as in having a conversation with, not communicating via, not that either makes much sense)
fierceawakening
Apr. 30th, 2007 07:28 pm (UTC)
I don't think I have to agree with everything she says or does to find her outlook on play inspiring.
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