Ficlet: Surrogate

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Summary:

This was a wee gift I wrote for a friend on Tumblr who was wondering why some fans find Soundwave's tentacles appealing. Pretty much what it says on the tin. :-)

Notes:

For TFPaddict.

Soundwave using Megatron's voice is actually something I've seen in someone else's fic. So credit is not mine for the concept. I'm just having fun with something I found hot. :-)


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Salvation again

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Those of you who are reading Salvation through LJ or here -- please send me a PM with your email address. I don't really use either much anymore and would rather just email it to everyone.


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Fic: Revival

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Title: Revival

Author: Fierceawakening

Rating: Explicit

Fandom: Transformers: Prime

Relationship: Megatron/Optimus Prime, brief mention of past Megatron/Starscream

Characters: Megatron (Transformers), Optimus Prime

Additional Tags: Dubious Consent, Sticky Sex

Series: « Part 2 of the Pact series

Summary:

Optimus has agreed to Megatron’s terms and exchanged his freedom for the Autobots’ safety. Megatron has had him repaired, polished, and branded anew with the Decepticons’ symbol - and had him brought to his berth. But after centuries of war and a coercive bargain, can anything between them be repaired? M for sticky and dub-con.

For Lyricality.

This is a sequel to Recoil and a gift for Lyricality. Happy holidays, dear. :-) Your friendship is a joy and a blessing in my life, and I hope you enjoy this fic.

Thanks to tfpaddict for beta reading.


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Salvation Chapter 9

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Latest post on the story filter over at my LJ (for the piece of original fiction I'm working on) is up. If anyone here wants to read it and isn't on that filter, comment. I'll put you on the filter there if you have an LJ. If you don't, let me know and I'll either crosspost here or email it to you (if you provide your email address.) All comments to this entry are screened.

People who needed it by email because they're not on LJ have hopefully gotten it in email. (Anyone who wants it and is not on LJ, again, can comment with contact info and I will get it to them.)

Really hope you enjoy it. And really looking forward to your comments as well.
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Ficlet: Blaze

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Title: Blaze

Author: Fierceawakening

Rating: Explicit

Fandom: Transformers: Prime

Additional Tags: Spoilers, Sticky Sex, Size Kink

Summary:

Spoilers for Darkest Hour in the ficlet and in this summary.

Just a tiny little vignette in response to a conversation on Dirty-TF-Secrets reading “Now I can’t stop imaging Megatron and Starscream celebrating their success with a rough sexy frag.” “Right on top of the smoldering Autobot symbol.”

….Okay.

Notes: For queertoons.

I’d meant to do this for a while, actually, but what pushed me to it was wanting to make a gift for queertoons on Tumblr (not sure what to call you, sorry!) because she(?) has been really cool and welcoming to me and I wanted to say thanks.

With porn.

Yay.

This is barely-edited and unbetaed. When I’m writing sex scenes I usually have to make them part of something big, and I decided to try my hand at something short and to the point, like my non-smutty ficlets are.


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Triumph

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Title: Triumph

Author: Fierceawakening

Rating: Teen And Up Audiences

Fandom:Transformers: Prime

Relationship: Megatron/Starscream

Characters: Megatron (Transformers), Starscream (Transformers)

Additional Tags: Spoilers, Dom/Sub, BDSM

Summary:

Spoilers for Darkest Hour in the fic and in this summary.

Brief little vignette of Megatron and Starscream amid the wreckage of the Autobot base. Starscream is enraged over the loss of the Omega Lock and of the possibility to restore Cybertron. Megatron is smug and pleased with his victory. And, er, happy to have Starscream back. Slashy with clear hints of D/s and SM, but nothing explicit.

Notes:

For Applepie3399.

Brief little giftfic for applepie3399 on Tumblr, who gave me some lovely screencaps at ginormohuge sizes from which to make snarky icons.

Unbetaed, as I still can't seem to find people. If anyone knows where the awesome betas are hiding, send them my way, please. I will reward them with energon sweets and smut.


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...on assisted suicide. Because I think it's a good 101 on many people in the disability community's take on the matter.

I mentioned that I was disappointed in a song I discovered was pro-assisted suicide.

My interlocutor said:

what about [assisted suicide] "raises your SJW hackles"? If someone wants to make a choice, it should be their choice to make. It's not Social Justice to dictate how others live their lives, wtf

I responded (edited slightly for clarity):

The concern I have about it is that many people with severe disabilities are told by others who don't have disabilities that they are better off dead and ought to kill themselves. Here's an example, to prove I am not making this up (since nondisabled people often aren't even aware this is an issue and see it as a matter of personal autonomy divorced from any other social context):

http://www.nytimes.com/2012/11/01/opinion/suicide-by-choice-not-so-fast.html?ref=opinion&_r=0

I'll excerpt a relevant part, just in case people don't read it, but I strongly recommend reading the whole thing.

I was born with a congenital neuromuscular weakness called spinal muscular atrophy. I’ve never walked or stood or had much use of my hands. Roughly half the babies who exhibit symptoms as I did don’t live past age 2. Not only did I survive, but the progression of my disease slowed dramatically when I was about 6 years old, astounding doctors. Today, at nearly 50, I’m a husband, father, journalist and author.

Yet I’m more fragile now than I was in infancy. No longer able to hold a pencil, I’m writing this with a voice-controlled computer. Every swallow of food, sometimes every breath, can become a battle. And a few years ago, when a surgical blunder put me into a coma from septic shock, the doctors seriously questioned whether it was worth trying to extend my life. My existence seemed pretty tenuous anyway, they figured. They didn’t know about my family, my career, my aspirations.

Fortunately, they asked my wife, who knows exactly how I feel. She convinced them to proceed “full code,” as she’s learned to say, to keep me alive using any and all means necessary.

From this I learned how easy it is to be perceived as someone whose quality of life is untenable, even or perhaps especially by doctors. Indeed, I hear it from them all the time — “How have you survived so long? Wow, you must put up with a lot!” — even during routine office visits, when all I’ve asked for is an antibiotic for a sinus infection. Strangers don’t treat me this way, but doctors feel entitled to render judgments and voice their opinions. To them, I suppose, I must represent a failure of their profession, which is shortsighted. I am more than my diagnosis and my prognosis.

This is but one of many invisible forces of coercion. Others include that certain look of exhaustion in a loved one’s eyes, or the way nurses and friends sigh in your presence while you’re zoned out in a hospital bed. All these can cast a dangerous cloud of depression upon even the most cheery of optimists, a situation clinicians might misread since, to them, it seems perfectly rational.

And in a sense, it is rational, given the dearth of alternatives. If nobody wants you at the party, why should you stay? Advocates of Death With Dignity laws who say that patients themselves should decide whether to live or die are fantasizing. Who chooses suicide in a vacuum? We are inexorably affected by our immediate environment. The deck is stacked.

Here's an example from my own life, less extreme because my disability is far less severe, but perhaps it will also help to put things into perspective:

I have PTSD. I have struggled with suicidal ideation for most of my adult life. When I am suicidal, however, people don't say to me "How noble that you choose to die with dignity! Let's hook you up with the Mental Illness Gentle Exit Network and you'll be good to go!" Instead, they approach the problem as that my thinking is distorted. That I am depressed. That I AM ILL, and that hopefully with their help, MY ILLNESS WILL PASS and when it does I WILL NO LONGER WANT TO DIE.

And yet, I strongly suspect that if I framed my suicidality as "I hate having a disability and I can't live with it any longer," suddenly my wanting to commit suicide would be lauded, celebrated, hailed not as an anomaly brought on by illness, but seen as the profoundest expression possible of my personal autonomy. What in a nondisabled person (or in me as long as I don't remind them I have a disability) is a sign of weakness, a reaching for what's dubbed "a permanent solution to a temporary problem" is an odd kind of heroism -- as long as the person Final Exiting is doing it because of disability.

I don't know that I would want people not to have the right to kill themselves. I don't know that I'd go that far -- just like abortion worries me, but I ABSOLUTELY don't think that means it shouldn't be a woman's choice. However, I'm deeply concerned and alarmed that people who aren't disabled see us killing ourselves as somehow heroic.

Imagine if people applied the same line of thinking to being gay? "Look, a lot of gay teens kill themselves. It must be so hard to live with the burdens of being gay that some people just decide they can't fight it any more, and let go. We should honor their choice to die with dignity."

Suicide is rarely noble. I won't say it can't be, but it rarely is.

For more on this issue I would recommend checking out Not Dead Yet. I don't agree with everything they say -- I'm uncomfortable with the idea that assisted suicide should be downright illegal, and would prefer focus on the kind of cultural change that would make using it rare and seen as pitiful rather than noble. But I think it's an excellent place to get a grounding in the other side of this issue -- a side people who don't have disabilities get the luxury of never seeing.

http://www.notdeadyet.org/

There's also the deeply unfortunate conflation in wider society of the movement against assisted suicide with the right wing/with "right to life" anti-abortion groups. While I do think the groups can overlap, nondisabled people dismissing groups like NDY as "right wing" misses that its ties are fundamentally to the disability rights movement -- which, as a whole, is left-wing. (I cannot, for example, think of a single disability rights organization I know of that didn't overwhelmingly support Obama in the last election, or that didn't support "Obamacare." We were huge backers of it from go -- because many of the provisions in it were designed with us, at least in part, in mind.)

Again, I do understand why not permitting assisted suicide can be seen as a violation of autonomy. I worry about being totally gung-ho about taking a choice away, so I'm only so on board with NDY. But at the same time, anyone else who is a danger to themselves can be forced into a psychiatric hospital because of it. They don't get to say "I want to kill myself; it's my choice" and go on their merry way to kill themselves in peace. They are presumed to be ill and to need help, such that they can be forced -- their AUTONOMY CAN LEGALLY BE VIOLATED -- to prevent them from doing it.

That may also be a violation. It may be that that too is abuse. However, if it is, why is the fight for a "right to die" about disability? People who hold this view should be arguing that suicide should be presumed an autonomous choice with rare exceptions, even in the case of mental illness in which suicidality is common. I don't see them arguing that, so I see a difference.

I get that something like terminal illness can be different. "I've got a month to live anyway and fuck do I hate this pain." But the thing is, if you spend any time talking to people with severe disabilities, you're much more likely to hear "the doctors asked why I'm hangin' around here" than you might think.

So until and unless those assumptions are gone, this is going to worry me, even though I don't know what I think the answer is. Please pardon my Godwin, but we're not all that far removed in time from Action T4, if you think about it -- and notions of "life unworthy of life" were not unique to Germany. The US itself was big on eugenics.

(Proof here:
http://www.eugenicsarchive.org/eugenics/)

So yeah -- I'm not sure the idea that assisted suicide occurs in a cultural context makes me think no one should be allowed to commit it. Just like I don't think that living in a patriarchy means we should ban porn because we live in a society marred by misogyny. But it continues to worry me -- especially since people like this commenter are so unaware of the question that their only response to someone saying "I didn't like the pro-assisted suicide message in that song" is not "Don't be so political" or "You can surely still like artists who disagree with you!" but rather "wtf."


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Ficlet: Kill Mercy Within

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Summary:
Spoilers for Darkest Hour in the fic and in this summary.

A little introspective ficlet about the bit in Darkest Hour where Megatron laughs after the Omega Lock is destroyed. The other Decepticons react with horror -- even Knockout's quip might be seen as an attempt to minimize the pain through sarcasm. But Megatron laughing is much less easy to explain. I've seen everything from "he never planned to save Cybertron" to "he was gloating because they don't know about the siege tower." I'm not satisfied with any explanation I've heard, or with the lack of context in canon. So here you go.

Notes:

1) I'm presenting this one unbetaed. I can't seem to find betas lately at all. Anyone available or have suggestions on where to find people? I'll love you forever.

2) Yes, "Kill Mercy Within" is the name of a song.

Yes, I listened to it to get in the right mood to write this.

No, this is not a songfic.



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http://boltstuck.tumblr.com/post/34645019725/the-world-whos-your-favourite-character-me

  • the world: who's your favourite character
  • me: that one
  • the world: but they're the villain
  • me: yep
  • the world: are you going to argue that they're misunderstood?
  • me: nope, they're actually quite evil

my response to that would be

"well

if by "argue that they're misunderstood" you mean

"worldbuild an entire culture with moral strictures and social norms very different from our own that lead the characters to value things we consider evil, for reasons that make internal sense to the characters and are hopefully relatable, and try my damndest to get people thinking about things that we would otherwise totally dismiss as horrible in a different light, but not actually change our mind about morality's requirements because yeah, they things they do and the views they hold are in fact, by a standard of morality I do actually consider objective, yep, evil"

then yeah

i suppose you could say not already having the understanding that I hope to create is "misunderstanding"

but hey

if that's not what you meant

carry on"


;-)

Tumblr things... (poss trig?)

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I am really, really, really uncomfortable with asexuality being considered "queer." I do understand that asexuals are a minority, and a misunderstood one. I even agree that they can face violence for their identities, such as corrective rape intended to "make" them sexual or to "make" them confess to "really" being sexual.

I do not believe that this makes them queer. I am very uncomfortable with that; it seems appropriative to me. (Yes, I get that some people identify as asexual and homoromantic or biromantic. I'm still a bit uncomfortable with this, but I can understand how that's queer. If you're living with, sleeping beside, marrying someone of the same gender, you're at similar risk of facing homophobia, even if you're never touching one another's genitalia.)

But if we're not limiting ourselves to considering homo- and biromantic people who actually put themselves publicly forward, in some sense, as gay or bi:

Asexuals reading this, I understand that you want to be respected and understood and not be demeaned. I get why the queer community is attractive to you -- we've been fighting for our sexualities to be understood and recognized. And we're winning, slowly but surely. I totally get why that would make you want to link yourselves to us.

But part of anti-gay prejudice is about bigoted people's reaction to people defying gender norms and bigoted people's perceptions of non-gender-normative attraction and behavior. While I don't doubt that asexuals can also challenge gender norms (particularly men, as men are generally perceived to be highly sexual and deeply driven by lust), I do not believe that anti-asexual bigotry is the same sort of beast.

People are not trying to vote away your rights. You don't always have to fear bashing, somewhere in the back of your mind. People are not going around saying that you've defied God and trying to force you to have sexual relationships. People are not setting up bogus therapies to rehabilitate you and force you to have sexual responses. The suicide rate of asexual teens is not constantly mentioned on the news. (Maybe it's also high, but I've never seen reference to it anywhere -- even such places as AVEN, where people would know about it even if it hasn't made it into mainstream knowledge yet.)

Your experience isn't ours. Please stop tacking yourselves onto mentions of queer people. It's insulting and unsettling and makes it seem like you can't form your own movement for yourselves and have to barnacle onto ours.

Unless you're gay (by which I mean homoromantic, biromantic, etc.), please just stop.

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